Loss

Last night, I went to a memorial service for a friend's son. He was 27 when he passed away last weekend. I heard about his death at the memorial service for another friend's wife.

There has been a lot of loss in my life lately. Loss of friends, loss of love, loss of respect, loss of self, and loss of my own child. It's becoming rather hard to deal with.

Before the service, I spent some time cuddling on the sofa with my oldest. For some reason, yesterday she looked even older than her long 6 and 1/2 years that she has grown. I felt so scared, wondering how I can help her to grow up and keep her sheltered from all the things that have led to loss in these last few months.

The best I could come up with was to hug her. Just to keep hugging her.